A journal with only ANGRY posts

OMFG IM SOOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR BKK!!!!
SEEING SO MANY PPL WENT AND CAME BACK WITH SOOOOOO MANY CLOTHES, ETC MAKES ME JEALOUS MUCH MUCH.

IM GOING TO BKK FO SURE. LATEST, MARCH.
okay, i know. its still like monthsssss away. but seriously, ive been planning this bkk trip since the beginning of this year. am saving up enough $$ to shop w/o thinking over there.
and no. i do NOT want to go HONGKONG again. not yet.
BKK FIRST. THEN TAIWAAAANNNN. MUUUUAAAAHAHHHAHAHAHHA.

shop and eat onlyyyyyyyyyyy~
both countries, during next year. happy happy.
anybody wna go with me to BKK during late march after i manage to graduate????
APPLY TO FRIENDS ONLY. NO PARENTS/RELATIVES. THANKYOUVERYMUCH. :D
 

you do know how it feels to have your hopes raised up high and crashed down low. you do know how that feels right?
i was at my weakest yesterday. i held my tears all the way home and only let it all out when im alone in room.
i have been waiting for months in vain. the things that you promised, you dont do it at all. thats why il always say promises are too, meant to be broken. it is really up to this point of time, i give up in hoping for you to do something. im seriously disappointed in you. to the point whereby i dont even want to talk it out anymore. i mean, whats the use of having to repeat the same thing over and over again? perhaps the longer the relationship is, the lesser each will do for each other. maybe i should stop trying.
you probably think that im kicking up a big fuss over nothing. but oh well, i dont want to start this whole shit over with you again.

recently, i have added one more wish to my multiple ones when i offer joss sticks. and that's to find my goal in life soon. what i want to do in the near future. very stupid and silly, yes.
ive been thinking and bombarding AJ with lots of ideas of mine for the future. lots of different different kind of jobs.

pilot.
model.
wedding planner.
fashion designer.
jewellery designer.
chef.
singer.
magician.
actress.
writer for columns.
work in an events company.
or work in a publishing company.
etc.

and everytime il be like, "hey, i thought of what i want to be in in the future! a .....!" and he'l go like "mmm, okay. how do you want me to support you when you keep changing your mind every now and then?"
HA HA. ive seriously got no interest in continuing studies. but ive got no choice do i? every job requires me to have a degree or whatever cert. unless, il be my own boss. which is not possible at all. but definitely definitely, im not going for a desk-bound job. it brings me misery & migrain. DSI has successfully mould me into someone who HATES desk-bound jobs.

oh well. since im only 19 right now, i should enjoy life as it is right? :D